I’ve talked a bit before about my poor relationship with food and I imagine these posts will explore that relationship. I believe I am body positive and very much comfortable in my own skin, but I know that some of the obsessing I do around food is not contributing to a healthy mind. It’s part of my own self-love to take steps to rectify that. If that kind of discussion is likely to offend you or make you uncomfortable then these posts are not for you! Head back over to the fashion and make up pages and forget all about what you’ve seen here! 😊

Anyone still with me?! OK here goes…

Tonight I’m starting a 7 week course called “I Eat What I Need” which claims to offer “a different way to resolve eating issues”, to give participants the opportunity to explore their eating and body “challenges” and to find peace in yourself. Pretty big claims! But for someone who is looking to change their mind rather than their body, there was something about the course that made me think it was worth a try.

After years of “failed” diets and interventions (I’ve tried lots) I’ve learnt everything there is to know about a healthy balanced diet. I’ve also been super lucky to have the recent realisation that it’s OK to be happy in my body regardless of it’s shape or size – which made it easier to stop the faddy diets and get rid of the guilt associated with eating ‘bad’ foods – now I just call it all food. 

Despite this (literally life changing) realisation I’ve come to the conclusion that I still have an unhealthy relationship with food. I self-medicate, using food to help regulate my mood, as a reward or a punishment. It’s a way of thinking I have control when actually I’m completely out of control. In order to truly demonstrate self-love I believe need to address this little food demon in my head because regardless of the physical impact it might be having on my body, it’s absolutely having an impact on my emotional wellbeing.

If I can find a way to “eat what I need” this course will be worth it. If I can share my body positive message with others it will be worth it. It’s possible that I could lose weight as a by-product but it isn’t my primary reason for going. I’m doing it from a place of love rather than a place of self-loathing.

I am definitely sceptical. But I’m open to trying something new. Especially if it will make me a happier, healthier person.

I’ll be updating my progress and my experience of the course as it progresses. Wish me luck! 😄 

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Hearts and Flowers at CFF 

Hearts and Flowers at CFF 

It’s been a whole week since Curve Fashion Festival and I haven’t blogged about it at all yet! I had loads planned – like, a “who I met” one, a “what was in my VIP goody bag” one and a “what I bought” one as well as some about the brands I particularly fell in love with. But I came home from CFF (it was a bloody nightmare of a journey!) and basically got poorly immediately! I spent my evenings after work sleeping and recuperating! I haven’t even looked through my goody bag properly yet!

So in order to restore my blogger mojo I thought I’d start by telling you about MY outfit for CFF! 

I chose one of my Silly Old Sea Dog dresses – this heart print, sleeved number was originally available for Valentines Day but I figure love isn’t seasonal so I’ve been wearing it all year! 

The dress itself was a statement piece so I hadn’t really intended to wear any jewellery but when I spotted the camera heart necklace on Pamper and Curves selling page on Instagram I thought it would go perfectly! 

(loads of people commented on the necklace on the day but as I bought it second hand I don’t know where it was from and can’t find it for sale anywhere I’m afraid!). I also added a pair of Babycham graffiti print trainers (I have various pairs of Babycham trainers – it’s an obsession!) so I could comfortably stomp around all day long!

…my new Paperchase satchel (which isn’t on their website…Sorry!).

…to finish it off I added a Rosadior hair flower accessory in my vintage inspired hair-do…

I was a bit nervous about going to a place filled to the brim with plus size style icons dresses in something less than subtle! But I felt that it was important to wear something that I loved and that I felt a million dollars in. Silly Old Sea Dog dresses never fail to give me that feeling. They’re so very “me” and kind of sum up my “vintage toddler” vibe.
My confidence was given a massive boost when I was approached by a reporter from The Liverpool Echo who was doing a feature on the festival’s “Best Dressed”. I feel like a bit of a fraud when compared to those stylish goddesses – but I’m still enjoying the compliment. 😊

Finally here’s a photo taken by the amazing Kitty Rambles A Lot – I really want to book a proper photo shoot now!

I had the most incredible day. I have so much more to tell you about the event and the impact it has had on me! Watch this space.

Did you go to CFF or have you seen pics of the event? Who were your style faves?!

 

A Day at the Races!

A Day at the Races!

Last Saturday was one of those magical days when everything seems to fall into place… It was my 35th birthday and I was lucky enough to spend it at Newmarket Races in their VIP bit (it was my husband’s work do) where we were treated to horse racing and a Little Mix performance! By some lucky coincidence my cousins were also there celebrating my cousin’s 30th birthday (her birthday is the day before mine) so I was able to gatecrash their party too – result! 

I’ve not been to the races before (except for doing agency work at Newmarket when I was a student) so wasn’t really sure what to wear… I wanted to look fancy without feeling overdressed so decided to go vintage as I feel less self conscious if I’m dressed up for some reason! I also wanted to save some money by shopping my wardrobe so I decided to go for my Pin Up Girl Penny dress in Harlequin print (mine is a different colour from a previous season – bought from my lovely blogger friend Tanya from Secret Plus Size Goddess). I teamed it with another blogger purchase – a domino Red or Dead clutch (from the fabulous Lolly Likes FATshion -and I’ve seen a couple on EBay) a Rosadior hair flower, and some sparkly silver sandals from Evans (previous season).

 

And here’s a few pictures from the day:

Our view from the VIP bit across the track

My gorgeous cousins 😍😍
Husband and I may have had a few Pimms
Got a bit nearer for Little Mix!

I had an awesome day – I’d definitely recommend the races for a special day out! The added bonus of a concert at the end was a real treat – even if we were a bit cut off from the gig atmosphere across the racetrack (which is why I went nearer!). You’ll need pretty deep pockets if you’re a big drinker though, as drinks were really expensive (£6 for a can of Pimms, almost £30 for a jug of Pimms! Single mini bottles of Moet we a stonking £20!). But we had a bit of beginners luck with the horses and managed to back a winner which helped with the drinks kitty! 

One of my favourite things about the day was dress watching – there were just so many gorgeous dresses to ooh and ahh over! I was also approached by a lady complimenting my dress!

Have you ever been to the races? What did you wear?!